I don't really like using the word "resolutions" this year for some reason. It might be because I have a hard time keeping any of them, and so feel guilty about "failing" to do what I thought about. New Year's Ideas sounds a little less, well, resolute, and allows me a little more compassion for myself if I don't follow through, or if it takes me a long time to get around to really working on the things I wanted to address in my life.
I am not a very patient person when it comes to painting. It is not unusual for me to have eight to ten canvases going at the same time, so that I can move from one to the other when the paint is too wet to continue on one or another. Sometimes a piece will not come together. I will set it aside for days, weeks, sometimes years, and then come back to see what I can to do to bring it to some kind of resolution that tells me it is done. Every once in a while I just roll it up and get rid of it, accepting that the initial idea did not work. This kind of sporatic and long-term approach used to make me feel frustrated with myself and with the work. As I've painted more and more over the years, I've realized that it's not a bad way to do the work. It's my way. And letting it (and me) take time to come to some kind of resolution is sometimes the only way something can get done.
This is a painting that is in process, one I've come back to several times and have not yet been able to call finished. It shows downtown Portland, Maine, from across the Back Cove. I will pull it out again soon, and see what I can do, and see where it, and the work, takes me.